I was standing on the train platform today listening to some tunes and just generally chillin on the way home. I wasn’t rushing anywhere. I wasn’t trying to cram my time with reading or doing. I was just being and absorbing and… breathing. I realised that’s something that I’ve not done in a long time.
When I was growing up I used to allow myself a lot of time to just breathe. Hanging around with friends doing nothing. Skating, basketball, music – even when I was doing these things my pace was far less frantic. I don’t know when, but at some stage along the way I tripped into overload mode and I think I’m only now starting to rediscover what it means to give myself space to breathe. It’s a nice feeling – something I intend to keep doing.
It’s meant that I’ve not been able to do as much. But whereas I once thought that was a bad thing, I’m actually seeing it as a virtue. Blogging (both reading and writing) has been one of the activities I’ve been missing. I’m glad to be getting back into the swing of things and I expect that as I settle into my new position at WWF the flow will return.
I was saying to some friends on Sunday – I’m feeling really good at the moment. About life. About who I am. It may be a combination of the new job, relaxing a bit more, looking after myself better. Finding safety in friendships inside and outside the house.
I’m even starting to write happier songs. I didn’t think that was possible, but the new ideas that are coming up lately definitely have a lighter touch.
I don’t really have a point to this entry really, other than to say life is good and I’m happy! (Not something I’m known to do very often.)
woah… happy songs? what are those, and how does one go about writing them? :p
good to hear your enjoying your new life with the new job and the change of pace. life is always beautiful – it’s all a matter of perspective.
😀 I’m thinkin my place. I’m thinkin Cairns. I’m thinkin Yungaburra. I’m thinkin July. I’m thinkin you a slow learner.