In just a few hours Saturn will have started it’s rotation again and I’ll be kicking the Big-Three-Oh! (I’m going to be offline for most of the weekend, so thought I’d post something before I unplug).
I’m glad to say that I’m not one of those people that hangs a lot of expectations on where I should be, or what I should have done, or any of that stuff. I was chatting to my Mum a few minutes ago and I think it’s a bigger deal for her than it is for me (the youngest of two brothers – by a fair distance – her baby finally growing up and all that).
Usually around my birthday I get restless. Nothing big, just a general sense of unease, like I need to move on, or change what I’m doing or starting something new. It starts off as just a general sense that I’m not comfortable a month or two before, and then gets more intense as the day comes near.
This year has been a bit the same, but with a twist. I’ve been questioning a couple of things, but overall I’m glad to be where I am, and I’m looking forward to the future. I feel like I’m in the right place, doing the right things. I have an underlying sense of contentment that is unfamiliar – contentment is not a feeling I’ve felt in a very long time. This is a good thing, and it’s nice to stop for a second to recognise it…
So I’m celebrating by enjoying a long-long weekend – some time off work (a rarety lately) to relax and enjoy the blue mountains, and catching up with some friends and spending time with Ang. See y’all on the other side 🙂
For those that are interested, I’m planning to have a few celebratory drinks next Friday (July 22) before going to see Bloc Party at the Metro. Somewhere in the city. If you’re interested, drop me a line (email, sms, phone, whatever) and I’ll let you know once I know where 😉